These last years, many Poles have left the country to go to England to lead an ‘easier and better’ life. For example, single mothers with young children can find help through its social welfare system.
I too was considering moving to England. However, I preferred to stay in Poland. But would I be able to provide for my children if I stayed in my home country; and, if so, how?
I grew up in a Catholic family in Poland. In 1993 I was saved, and in 1998, at the age of 23, I married Paul, 27.
Together we joined a local church established in our city by an evangelical missionary. I enjoyed being a non-working mother of three children, having a ministry at the church working with child r e n a n d y o u t h , a n d serving God in many ways.
We led a fairly comfortable life, having all that we needed and being able to s h a r e w i t h o t h e r s. I considered myself blessed because I had a husband, three healthy children, a nice flat and financial security.
But our comfortable life ended suddenly. In winter 2004 my husband went down with flu. He went to the doctor and received antibiotics. After a few days he returned to work and we thought that l i f e w o u l d r e t u r n t o normal.
But unexpectedly we found that the flu did not go away, but developed into a serious disease called cardiomyopathy, which eventually caused Paul’s death four months later.
It was emotionally the most difficult time in my life. I had lots of questions, such as why did God allow this to happen. However, I have learnt not to trust and live by my emotions, but to trust my God and live by faith.
‘God is love’. He was the one who planned our marriage. Although we spent only six years together, what happened was not a mistake. I do not c o n s i d e r m y s e l f a s someone who has been robbed, but I can rely on God’s will.
I know where my husband is. He is with Jesus now, in the place where I am going to be, together with our children. I do not know all the answers why. In fact, quite truthfully, I do not really search for them. Since I gave my life to Jesus, I have trusted him just as my husband did.
I am not going to tell Christ what is best for me; I believe he knows best. I have chosen to keep on loving him, as I am his and he is mine. ‘A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows’, God is my provider.
He cares not only for my spiritual needs, but also supplies my physical ones. When my husband died, our flat was on credit. I did not have a job and had no chance of getting one, due to having three little children.
It was God who deeply moved many people’s hearts, so that within three months I had enough money to pay the credit off and live through the next seven years, having a part time job and raising my children.
When the money I received after my husband’s death ran out, the questionwas even more pressing as to whether I should stay in Poland and serve God — an option closer to my heart and easier emotionally for my children — or go to Britain where the social benefits are much better?
I made the choice to stay, trusting that God would somehow continue to provide. With the help of friends from Central Eurasian Partners I have set up a language school, as a means to earn money and at the same time build natural contacts with students and teachers.
God is providing for me. We still need more students to break even and supply all my needs and those of my teachers, but student numbers have doubled this year to over 40, and God is moving people’s hearts to provide the shortfall until the business is established.
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